the beauty in solitude

The poet and singer Tanya Davis wrote a poem entitled How to be Alone. This poem explores the idea that being alone is a time to meditate and to exist without people around. She expresses repeatedly that being alone is not wrong nor proof that there is something wrong with you. I have a testimony. I used to sulk in my loneliness. Ten years ago, to be alone separated me from my peers. This very second I'm typing a post in a big chair for one in my favourite cafe. No plates. No cups. Nothing. Although I'm pondering a chai latte...we'll see.

Take Tanya Davis' lesson and use it. Look up the poem on YouTube, watch it and be moved. There is NOTHING wrong with just BEING in public. Find a place and commit to yourself.
BeGolden
Jahmal

....being blessed.

To Manifest - to accept and summon...if you believe it, it shall be.

Despite the hell that I've endured in this last week and a half, I've discovered a lesson. Without going into detail, this week has been horrible. We will all endure terrible weeks in our lives. Sometimes we think that we're not strong enough amidst the arrows slung at us. I believe we all have the strength to live on. I chose to manifest blessings recently and they've been coming. They will continue to come if I keep giving in to them.

We have the ability to effect our present in spectacular ways. We choose to feel better when we're sick. We choose to find things when we loose them. We choose to live on in spite of _______. We can also choose to be blessed, healthy and happy. Tell yourself to be happy and blessed and you will notice the beauty that arrives at our doors. Even little things...Waking up. Being among friends. Feeling safe. Life is full of magic. Choose to pluck it from the sky and use it to power your passage through life.

beGolden and Blessed

Jahmal

brownies and the super bowl...

manifestation - that act of controlling and "summoning"...

I'm not always hip to things. Sometimes I SWEAR that my day is going to be terrible when little things all around me are pointing the opposite direction. Yesterday, I started to feel sick. Frustrated, I cleaned and rested and planned on dying that day. I planned on just wallowing in my whathaveyou and letting the day go by. Then I was convinced to wake up, get dressed and start baking. We baked brownies, cookies and talked. I got dressed and we went out. I got to another friend's house and were started cooking. We brought food over to a party, shortly after. Mind you, this party is often pretty awkward between the extreme parental supervision and the sheltered private school students. Still, we went and had as good a time as we could. By the third quarter, I had consciously told myself that I was going to enjoy the rest of night. Then, out of the heavens appeared the only shape I pray to. PETERRR!!! He's my best friend and we met a year ago yesterday at the same place. We hung out for the rest of the party. We drove around till he dropped me off home. Great night, I would say.

We have so much more control then we admit to. Some of us reject our powers and go with the flow. I choose to make my own reality. If you speak, it shall be. I believe that if you give in to beauty and happiness it will give in to you. Give in. It'll make your life better. Give in to happiness and beauty.

beGolden

Jahmal

Luck is Fool's Gold.

delusive - giving a false or misleading impression...

My midterm period is over at last!! C: It feels good knowing that it is out of the way and such. I didn't do too well on my Economics Midterm, but I tried. I put a lot of effort into studying and focus and it didn't cut it. I suppose that that's life. At least I relied on myself and my abilities. A few people cheated. Some cheated more boldly than others. None were caught. What's worse is that some people left their success in the hands of luck. In the words of successfully "ghetto fabulous" girls all over, "boo, boo...no."

We rely on our abilities to accomplish little things. For example, we rely on our linguistic abilities to get us out of problems, to create opportunities, to comfort, to defend. We rely on our memories to move in the dark, to find our way home, to cook our favourite foods. If we relied on luck to move in pitch black, we'd fall and scrape our knees. Luck is for the weak-minded and the sloth. To get what we want in the word, we must put in effort. The world is equivalent exchange...What we put forth, we will receive and other similar lessons power our passages through life. Depend your abilities, work for what you want and make sure that you put in as much effort as possible.

beGolden

Jahmal

your lying eyes...

optical illusion - you should know what it means. If you don't, it'll be explained below.

I was sent a link to a page of impossibly difficult optical illusions. Some things appeared flat that weren't. In fact, they were very 3D and made you feel stupid when you finally adjusted your eyesight and understood them. Needless to say, this seems to apply to a lot of things in reality. Some things appear differently than they are until your eyes adjust. Some of us get caught in the optical allusion that life can be. We look at situations as if they were flat as cardboard when, in fact, they are completely topographic; hills, mountains, valleys and all.

Tilting your head just a little bit can make

all the difference. We let in more light when we remove our hands from out eyes. Try looking at it another way because some things aren't as flat as they appear. Try looking at it another way. It can drastically improve your perception of life, ultimately making you happier and making oth

ers happier in the process.

beGolden and open

Jahmal

letting people go...

traverse - to travel or move.

Of late, I've been obsessing over a friend of mine. Recently, he indirectly revealed to me that he often isn't in the mood to be around me. If I had known, I think that a conversation would have been had earlier. Alas, I didn't know. He ignored my calls I assume because he knew that I knew how he felt. He cut off communication all together. I'm sort of over it. I tried to cling onto what memories and good experiences I had with this person, then I found myself recalling the times that I didn't enjoy his company. Never have I felt so strongly that I needed to tell someone, but I have felt annoyed when around him sometimes. I suppose we're both at fault, but that isn't the moral.

Though it is IMPERATIVE to own what part you take in issues an so on, there is something to be said about moving on. If someone wants to leave your life, temporarily or permanently, let them. It's a waste of energy clinging to people who have no desire to be near you. Sure, at any point, my friend could approach me and ask for us to be friends once again. Then I have a choice to make. Do I want to forget and move on with my life, embracing someone who has the potential to hurt me, or do I acknowledge the emotions I felt during his absence and reject him. It can be seen as vindictive, but what's wrong with holding grudges. Sometimes, forgiveness doesn't mean amnesia. Think about it.

beGolden

Jahmal

How Hamlet Actually Changed me...

Faculties - an inherent mental or physical power...

I was watching the movie Coraline yesterday. Mind you, I've read the book like 4 times and

I loved it soo much. The movie, however, was crap. It looked nice, but it didn't follow enough of the book. They made a new character...he's black, quirky and awkward....yup. Anywho, there came a part when Ms. Spink and Ms. Forcible were doing an acrobatics whathaveyou. While doing so, they were reciting something. I looked up the line, "How infinite in faculties." Turns out, it's a part of Hamlet. Hamlet goes on about how great Man is. The piece is brilliant! If you want to, google What a Piece of Work is Man and read the whole thing. It celebrates humans and how beautiful and complex they are. Then, you might be compelled to think the following...

We are very incredible and complex creature. With our reason, our beauty and our faculties, we are a paragon, a symphony of color and perfection. Why should we be tainted by things so trivial as the artificial. Find your inner beauty. Find your inner paragon. Read Hamlet! : P Just kidding...you don't have to torture yourself. Still, believe in the power of your culture, your people and just people in general.

beGolden

Jahmal